Friday, August 29, 2008

You wouldn't be messing with me, would you?

When I'm old(er) and gray(er), I hope I look back on this experience with gratitude. Not necessarily for bringing me a child (if that happens) but for driving home (again and again, ad nauseum) that the world does not revolve around me. That I simply don't have control over everything that I wish I had control over. I can't guarantee that I'll ever be that humble, but I most assuredly do recognize that I can't do squat if my body has other ideas.

That said, my lining is, again, fluffier than it ever has been. 8.5. Follicles are less prolific than last time, but hey, they're all roughly the same size and, well, my short term memory sucks at this point too. I recognize that when my follicles are forcibly sucked out of my body there very well could be little aliens inside giving me the collective finger. The good news for now is that this cycle is on track. After 16 days of stims. Nearly $5000 in drugs alone.

I'll take some good news for the long weekend.

8 comments:

Io said...

Ooo! Fluffy lining! Most excellent - hope it stays perfect for some excellent embryos to settle into.

PJ said...

That whole thing about life being half chance has really hit home for me this year. I'm not really a control freak, but this is ridiculous! Somewhere in there the phrase, "All you can do is try" became my motto.

Good luck with you, and have a great weekend!

Vikki a.k.a "V" said...

Good Luck with this cycle. Here is to a BFP!!!!!!!!

S said...

Great news!!!

Sweet Georgia said...

Glad to hear the lining is nice and fluffy.

You're so right about the lack of control.

Denise said...

Hope you're having a good weekend and your cycle STAYS on track!

Shinejil said...

I'm with PJ, but I'd revise the chance quotient up to life being somewhere around 80% chance. Okay, maybe I've spent too much time with fatalist gloomy Slavs...

I'm so glad you got good news! I'm crossing every appendage and knocking on all sorts of wooden objects, just in case that helps.

TABI said...

Good news on the lining, and hope those follicles don't give you the finger! Can't wait to hear how many you get!