Tuesday, March 3, 2009

First, there were pee sticks...

Now, ultrasounds. My name is Melanie and I am an ultrasound addict. Yes, I have had an ultrasound every week since I conquered the peesticks. When I try to wean myself off of the ultrasounds, I get the eye twitters and the body shakes and the 1000 thoughts of what could possibly have gone wrong since the last week. Then, hands shaking, eyes bloodshot, I pick up the phone, make the appointment and vow to be stronger next week.


Today's ultrasound revealed a fat fetus measuring 15 weeks, one day. Little A has a four chambered heart, a good looking, chain-like umbilical cord, a lovely spine and a huge stomach. He has really long fingers, one of which was in his mouth. No view of what we believe supports my continued use of the pronoun "he," but we'll know definitively soon enough.

I also learned from the ob that I'm anemic, which explains the headaches and shortness of breath. I just assumed it was a normal part of the process, but am thrilled - thrilled I tell you - that it's not. Though it takes away my excuse for lack of regular exercise, I'm pleased.

As for the nonfetus-carrying side of me, I'm doing really well. I still haven't told work but probably will in the next couple of weeks. I'm enjoying my little secret of secrets. We've widened the circle of friends and family who we've told, and everyone has been wonderful. Not, of course, that I expected folks not to be, but still. It just seems so new and strange and unexpected and foreign. I continue to live the infertile's mantra of hope tempered with realism coupled with "do wonderful things really sustain after so much heartbreak?" I hope so.


Mermaid said...

Glad your anemia was caught early. It's amazing what a little iron can do. It clears the headaches up very nicely.

Duck said...

Melanie - time to eat something to get that Iron up - and u/s addict hey - how do you manage to get all those U/s's? now request time - get yourself one of those creepy floating babies so I can keep track of when you get to meet him in person!

Shinejil said...

Oi, anemia! It's the WORST. Hope you feel better soon--may I recommend an elk or buffalo burger (or is that a totally hippy Midwestern thing)?

I love u/s, even though I just started getting them. The more, the merrier. Let us in on your u/s weedling secrets.

Io said...

Melanie, I'm so glad the kid is looking good!
And there is nothing wrong with being a u/s addict. Unless it continues after the kid is born. Then I will question you.
Now go eat a live cow.

Phoebe said...

I'm glad to hear your pregnancy is going well.

I tagged you on my blog for the Honest Scraps award. It’s not an Oscar, but the next best thing!

Joonie said...

I know what you mean about being addicted to ultrasounds. For me, once I started to feel the baby move, the addiction went away on its own. Hopefully that will happen for you in the next few week as well.

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Mo and Will said...

I fully imagine that I will be a bonafide ultrasound addict (if I can get anyone to indulge my addiction - I'm hoping after three losses, that I will be able to) should I be so lucky to get preggers.

I say keep the scanning going as long as it makes you feel better/you can afford it/you have time to get it.

Sorry to hear about the anemia - but glad that it's been caught.

Sounds like things are moving right along.