Saturday, January 26, 2008

For another exciting episode...tune in next month.

It was the damn pregnancy tests. I knew I should have just left them on the shelf for the nervous, twitching 18 year old lingering back on aisle 12 in Target. It was a sign. But no, I had to brazenly lean down to the ladyparts section of the "feminine" aisle and pluck up the last box of EPTs with impunity. I'm an adult, I rationalized. I pay taxes. I want to get pregnant. I can buy pregnancy tests because I am a tax paying, pregnancy wanting adult and must be prepared when I need to test after my lining plumps up like a Chia Pet and my blastopops are transferred into the promised land.


It was the wrong move. I tempted fate. I counted my non-hatched chickens. I got cocky. I got cancelled.


My uterus eeked out a miserly lining of 6.2. Traitorous bitch.


I was given the choice if I wanted to go forward, but my RE advised against it. Why not instead try a greater dosage of estrogen and get it up where it needs to be next month? I've only got two on ice, so she wants to get it as close to perfect as possible. Makes sense. This is going to work, she says.


I'm ok. Disappointed. But ok.

I think shopping will help. But not at Target.

9 comments:

Rebecca said...

Arghhh! I'm so sorry...your doc is probably right, but it doesn't make it any easier.

Io said...

Ug. I'm so sorry. Damn. I will join you in blaming Target.

luna said...

argh is right! I'm so sorry you have to wait, but better to increase your chances I suppose. hope you won't have to wait too long. looks like I'll be doing my FET in March too...

gotta love the retail therapy sometimes. whatdyaget?
~luna

Almamay said...

I'm so sorry. I had my worst lining the one time I did a FET, it is usually lovely and fluffy like you. Wonder what that is all about? And like you I beat myself up for tempting fate. Try and be kind to yourself. Blame Target!

Jen said...

I'm so sorry. Stupid Target.

heather said...

blah, i'm so sorry. The waiting already sucks enough, without more forced waiting. I hope the next cycle goes quickly. and I hope you do some fun retail therapy (but not at Target). I recommend going to Anthropologie and drooling over their housewares.

heather/saltandpickles

shinejil said...

I'm so sorry. I agree with some of the other commenters: blame Target and get some high-quality shopping in elsewhere.

Duck said...

Ahhhh! Being cancelled sucks, but, i love the shopping trip story, i was hanging on every word.

Swim said...

I'm so sorry you got this cycle cancelled.

Hope the retail therapy helped. It always helps me.