Saturday, December 13, 2008

100 Posts

I'm certainly not as prolific as other bloggers. Over one year of blogging and only 100 posts. Still, I will chalk it up as one of life's little accomplishments. This is where I am after one year and 100 posts.


I can handle anything. That's not to say that, off the bat, I will handle anything life deals me with grace and maturity and wisdom. Certainly, there will be times that I will scream and kick and moan and "why me". I'm pretty darn confident that I'll even act like a little shit at times. But I will end up in a place of grace, of acceptance and always good humor. Despite the tears. At some point when faced with the unparalleled unfairness of life, I will turn bitter cranberries into a darn good Cosmopolitan. I believe, despite everything, that this life has been a blessing and will continue to be.


I accept that people can be insensitive, self centered, clueless fools. That includes me. I used to spend countless minutes obsessing about the ridiculously imperceptive and tactless comments made by strangers and even close friends. The "you don't have children, so you don't know what I'm talking about" or the "don't you think you're taking this too far" or that I am somehow less of a human or a woman because I don't have children variety. I accept - now - that these comments and many others about a myriad other subjects will always be around for the "sharing." And other than the few minutes I will spend gleefully retelling the affronting comment(s) to my husband and others worthy of my skewering wit with attendant commentary about the unattractive physical attributes of the dummies who made the comments of course, I will go on my merry way. I continue to try like the dickens to avoid being such an obtuse human myself. (For example, telling a new mother that her child looked like a sweet little lizard. I actually said that. Jesus.)


I hope that I've learned to be kind. I don't mean milquetoast kind or pushover kind or honey dripping from your upturned lips kind. Just kind. Respectful of the differences of others. Mindful of how words can hurt.

As to my three days of notreallybedrest, bedrest....

Loved it. Loved it. Loved it. It could only have been better if Raoul my beach boy had flown his tan perky self in from the Islands to peel my grapes. (My darling husband tried very, very hard but his grape peeling skills are deficient.)

And I have POAS, but it looks like the trigger shot still isn't out of my system. I thought it was supposed to be gone in 10 days, but it's still showing positive on 11 days post trigger. Oy.

13 comments:

PJ said...

Congrats on your 100th post! You've always been more about quality than quanity. I do love your gift of prose!

My nurse said that there is a 4 hour window in which I need to take the progesterone.

I had implantation bleeding in October when I got pregnant but miscarried or it was chemical, or something of that nature. Anyway, the ever so slightest bit of blood is exactly the same as last time. And then it goes away after a few days. Last time it completely freaked me out, as in I thought I was getting my period way early!

You're POAS already! I love it! :P

May the rest of the wait fly for both of us and end on an absolutely positive note, that sticks around for the next nine months!

Almamay said...

You are fantastic! Did you really tell a woman her baby looked like a lizard? I wish I was there for that.

Interesting about getting a positive on the HPTs. I think 11 days is more than enough time for your trigger shot to be out of your system.

Evil Stepmonster said...

Yay for your 100th post. I always thought that it only took 10 for the trigger to leave your system too....

Dora said...

Lizard baby! Love it!

Pass the cosmo here, you're PUPO.

Ya know, it could be a real positive.

luna said...

happy hundred!

I also think 11 days is long enough to get the hcg out of your system, but what do I know?

Cassandra said...

Happy 100th!

Here's hoping that day 11 BFP wasn't the trigger at all.

Sweet Georgia said...

Congratulations on your 100th post! I hope that as you continue to POAS they all stay positive!

Shinejil said...

Babies often do look like lizards. And what's so wrong about that? Lizards are lovely. :)

I'm so very intrigued by the day 11 positive...I'll keep various appendages crossed.

JJ said...

Happy 100!

Im hoping that the trigger is long gone=)

Denise said...

"I will turn bitter cranberries into a darn good Cosmopolitan." As always, I love your outlook.

Phoebe said...

Happy 100. I've loved your wit all along. I too think it could be more than just the trigger.

Another Julia said...

Sounds like more than the trigger to me, too. Crossing my fingers for you!

TABI said...

Yay for 100! Congrats on the great transfer! I am keeping everything crossed for you and hoping that BFP stays put and you still remain a positive when you test later.