Wednesday, December 3, 2008

Keeping on with the keep on

If I ultimately go down in a flaming ball of destruction on this cycle, at least I will know my body did everything it could. My body, God love her, is doing everything she can to score one for the home team. E2 levels are awesome (3000), follicle development is stellar (as of today, around 14, all about the same size), and my lining, oh my lining, is 9. A 9 for crying out loud. My RE told me that I'm the overachiever of the week. We actually shared a hearty laugh looking at the ultrasound today. "What are you trying to prove?" he said, as he shook his head. Oh buddy, if you only knew. Retrieval is Friday.

So I'm optimistic. Yes, I'm optimistic, but with a healthy dose of realism. I recognize that typing these words now will do nothing to obviate the sadness if this cycle goes south, I know that. But I will also know that I did everything, everything, to make it work. If this cycle were like the last, which was touch and go from the first minute, I imagine it would be hard for me to walk away. I suspect I would always wonder if I had just given it one more try, maybe the outcome would have been different. Maybe my body would have responded differently. Maybe the timing was just off. Obviously, I've still got some steps to take...I mean, the follicles need to contain actual eggs right? But, this is good. Really good.

Because a girl always needs a plan, I've begun compiling my 39 for 39 list. You know, the 39 things I will accomplish in the year I turn 39. Uh hem, that would be in February. My list includes the exciting "visit Australia" to the challenging "lose those damn 15 *&^%$ pounds" to the philanthropic (TBD). I've still got 24 things to add. All suggestions welcome.

12 comments:

Evil Stepmonster said...

WooHoo! Mind and body synchronized!
How awesome to enter into the next part of the cycle with confidence. Well done and best wishes.

Mermaid said...

Good job on overachieving! I'm hoping this is your perfect cycle. Good luck Friday! I'm so jealous you get an actual RE doing your ultrasounds....the nurses/nurse practitioner always did mine. Although they have a gentler technique.

Duck said...

9, a 9 you're lining is fat. and look at all those follicles, holy eggs! It's great news (oh and for all of us freaks out here - did you continue with all that Bee stuff or did you stop? or have I confussed you with another blogger with endo and several IVF's...

Dora said...

14 and 9! You go, girl!

2roads said...

All systems a go! This is great! Way to go Body!! I hope tomorrow goes smoothly. We are all pulling for you.

Phoebe said...

I think your body is saying, "put me in coach!" Looking forward to more overachieving in the week to come!

JJ said...

Go rock-star body! Thats a great level--you are gonna have some stellar follies for ER!

PJ said...

That's wonderful news! Keep on, keepin' on!

Shinejil said...

Damn! That's some definite overachieving. Great news on the plump lining.

As far as suggestions for goals, how about grow a mighty fine tomato?

Jewels said...

Sending ~*Positive Thoughts*~ your way and everything crossed for you.

Cassandra said...

Good luck tomorrow!

I don't think my RE knows how to do a hearty laugh, much less share one with a patient. Hope the joy continues on Friday and beyond!

Rachie Pachie said...

Hoping the ER goes well! All those numbers sound great!