Wednesday, April 1, 2009

Quad Screen Results...

...came back fine. Negative for neural tube defects, risk of chromosomal issues very low. My little A seems to be doing fine. I'm doing fine. Actually, I feel great. I always thought (back in the days when I thought I could go off the pill and *zippo* fall pregnant) that I would hate pregnancy, but I don't. At all. It's added a new dimension to my feelings about ART.

Frankly, title of my blog notwithstanding, I never gave much thought to pregnancy. itself. Sure, if you go the traditional route, you have to go through pregnancy to get the desired result. The desired result was what I wanted and why I endured the sado-masochism that is IVF. I always assumed that, well, pregnancy would suck, but it was worth it. I was wrong. There is a magic and a mystery and a joy to pregnancy I never could have imagined. I'm not sure if it's because it was so difficult to get to this point or because I truly came to believe that it wouldn't happen, but either way or neither way, I'm in awe of this process.

I wonder if my ultrasound addiction fueled this? Seeing my Little A stick his hand in his mouth and cross his little frog legs (tasty side of remoulade anyone?) and drape his little arm over his eyes just slayed me. I never expected to love carrying around this little, not yet a full beer in weight, soon to be human quite so much. I mean, we haven't really met or exchanged pleasantries or hugs or handshakes, but I would leap tall buildings for him. I would slay dragons to keep him safe. How very strange it all is. Very strange indeed.

We got our first two baby gifts the other day. One was a little onesie with ducks and a matching bib. So very tiny. My husband commented that "it wasn't very masculine." I reminded him that they didn't issue guns and camo until at least 18 months. Sigh. The other gift was a blue blanket, so incredibly soft with a satin edge. A little blue blanket for my Little A. At some point I will tell him about my blue blanket and Old King Cole blanket one day. I wonder where they are?

5 comments:

PJ said...

Sounds like things are moving along wonderfully!

Io said...

I'm so glad that you are having a great pregnancy - the universe must have decided you needed a good break.
And I'm glad A is looking good!

Evil Stepmonster said...

Congrats on good test results and yay for a joyful pregnancy! I think having fought so hard to get here that we do take this process less for granted than others may. I keep saying to people that I can't wait for the real kicking to begin and they just seem to roll their eyes at me and say things like "oh you will so regret saying that". We'll see...

Susan Jett said...

Oh, so very glad everything came back so good! And also glad to hear how much you're enjoying pregnancy. You give me hope for the next few months!

Shinejil said...

I realized that, too: That I was so obsessed with understanding why I could not (or perhaps could someday) GET pregnant that the whole being pregnant bit escaped me entirely.

Now I feel like a clueless moron in wonderland.

But that's fine.

Glad your quad looked good. One less thing to worry about.