Wednesday, March 12, 2008

3rd BETA

Unable to stand the uncertainty, I asked to move my blood test to today. Results are a heartbreaking 140. Miscarriage is on its way.

Tonight I will drink wine.

Tomorrow I will book plane tickets and hotel in Anguilla.

Saturday I will have a massage.

I will think about other plans...later.

29 comments:

Carrie said...

Oh Melanie, I am so very very sorry. This is a terrible blow. Life is so unfair.
Drink lots of wine, worry about tomorrow when it comes.

Thinking of you xx

Mrs.X said...

Oh honey, I am so, so sorry for you. That is just heartbreaking. I wish it weren't so. Take as much time (and wine) as you need to heal. I also recommend finding anything furry and snorgling it. I'm sending you lots and lots and lots of hugs.

heather said...

I'm so sorry . I think wine & anguilla are a great plan. hot baths with the wine are also very nice.
indulge and take care of yourself.
xo
heather (s&p)

Super O said...

Oh, I'm so sorry. I'm hoping that there is something wrong with their lab testing. Is that possible? A vacation sounds like a very nice distraction right now. Be gentle with yourself.

Denise said...

NOOOOOOO!!!!

I'm so, so sorry. This just sucks beyond belief.

Io said...

Fuck.
I am so sorry. So very sorry.

PJ said...

Ditto.

What Io said.


I'm so sorry.

Rebeccah said...

Oh no ...
I'm so very very sorry.
Many cyberhugs.
~R

luna said...

oh melanie, I am so so sorry. I had my hopes high for you. this really rots. wine and massage and vacation are good. but I know your heart is breaking too. so very sorry. wish there was something I could say. ~luna

The Giving Tree said...

DANG! I'm so sorry. I've been watching and keeping the faith with you. E

TABI said...

I am so so terribly sorry! I can't stand that this is happening to fellow bloggers and my heart goes out to you. Be good to yourself and drink wine and do spa treatments as long as you need. Ugh, I am so mad this is happening. So sorry again.

Alison said...

I am so, very sorry Melanie. Mt thoughts are with you and your family during this difficult time.

shinejil said...

I am so, so sorry, Melanie.

Get a really good bottle. I hope a little time by the sea takes the edge off the disappointment and sadness.

Working Girl said...

I just don't know what to write. I am so very sorry for you. Now is a very appropriate time to be selfish. Do whatever it takes to take care of yourself. Big hug to you from me!!!!!

The Town Criers said...

Sweetie, I am so so sorry. What terrible news.

Paranoid said...

Oh, no. I am so sorry. That's awful.

Shauna Wagner said...

i'm very very sorry. that just sucks.

Meg said...

I am so incredibly sorry.

Wine is a good thing....bittersweet I know.

JJ said...

Im so very sorry...

JuliaS said...

I am so very sorry. So many losses are difficult to take - I know.

I wish you peace and comfort and much better ahead.

luna said...

melanie, I won't ask how you're doing, because I can imagine. just wanted you to know I'm thinking of you and sending some virtual love. ~luna

Ahuva Batya said...

I am so sad with you. Sad and angry. Please take care. This is so unfair.

Isn't it pretty to think so said...

Hello, I just found your blog, and wanted to tell you how sorry I am for your loss. I have been through four losses and I know how painful it can be. Enjoy your wine, et al. and be good to yourself. Sending healing thoughts your way.

Bea said...

I'm sorry to hear about your loss.

Bea

Cibele said...

I am sorry

Jen said...

I wish I could do more or say more than I'm sorry to take the pain away. Take care of yourself. If you need anything, to vent, to cry, to bitch, to fashion a voodoo RE doll, let me know.

Carrie said...

Hope you are hanging in there. I've been thinking of you and hoping you are ok. I know how hard this all is and I wish I could be more than a virtual shoulder.

Frenchie said...

Melanie,
My heart is breaking for you. I am so so so sorry. There aren't adequate words.
(((Hugs)))

Duck said...

so sorry to read this. wine is essential. Drink lots.